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blah. [18 Oct 2006|11:56am] any lyrics along the lines of "lifes to short".....or you wont really know if something will work AGAIN unless you try it. i hate the indescisive male. we dated for about...2 years....almost a year now since we broke up...and hes still around! no matter what....we always wind up kissing and hanging out..since february! ill pretend to hate him..we wont talk for a few...we'll ignore eachother for alil bit....it never works....we always wind up back in the same spot...of hanging out....flirting...and wind up kissing again. yet...he just doesnt know if we'll work again....so why all of this? should us always winding up in the same spot tell him something? its driving me crazy.....HELP. lyrics of any kind to what i had suggested and to this situation...:( upon the stars | lay my dreams

im a .b.e.l.i.e.v.e.r. BABY [28 Aug 2005|06:27pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | -sugar, we're going down swingin'- FOB ] i know...i know... i havent updated in like, forever. so, im at school... back at good 'ol desales university. woo. woo. jackie love and i are dorming in chappius, 209. its not that bad... kind of far away from the other dorms which was totally sucking... but its getting better i suppose. its a just a hike to get to the other dorms. but we're having a good time. i have seen john everyday :) which is awesome. i am happy to be back to being able to see him everyday. i love my baby. <3 now for classes... the whole reason for being here. its kind of hard to say right now... but, im kind of worrying. what else is new? hah. i already dropped philosophy without even going to the class, because when i went to western civ AND anatomy AND native american culture... and realized thats alot in itself... i mean, with reading...and memorizing... philosophy would be better taken in the spring. im not stressing myself out again like i did last semester. so... philosophy will have to wait. as for the classes... western civ seems kind of boring... but nivison is a cool guy, so it should turn out alright, but we do have 6 books for that class. history and philosphy of sport seems interesting, so thats not a problem there. brett is a cool guy as well. no problems. although, my alarm clock didnt go off and i missed the class and we had a homework paper deal due...and i went and turned it in to him in his office and he told me he wasnt grading it. so...that was kind of dick. but whatever. i got over it. native american culture...is going to SUCK. its really really way over the top boring... and its ALOT of reading... and its just totally uninteresting. blah. not looking foreward to that class. but mcknight is alright and i had her twice last year. so, i think i can manage. now...as for anatomy...man. that will be a challenge. i didnt think the teacher was cool at first, he came across really boring and monotone. but hes actually really nice and seems to know alot and doesnt overload on the work. so, hopefully... even though its anatomy, it will go over well. i got into the modern dance class. it worked with my schedule and i LOVE it. its awesome. a guy named tim teachs it and a senior here [david] plays the music for us. he plays the bongos. tim gives him a beat or the counts and he comes up with music. its pretty sweet. i like it. so, there are my classes for ya. fun arent they? teh. i hope i dont freak. hmmmm what else. im actually becoming cool with girls i didnt think i'd talk too. which is sweet. been hanging around with laur laur and T. the weekend was cool with those girls. :) height next year... its a done deal girls. more weekends are ahead. we own. so the first week here...i wont lie... i was miserable. i hid it alot... but i honestly didnt want to be here at all. :( and john noticed the most... since he is always around me and picks up on how i feel all the time. i dont know what got into me... first off.... i didnt have my cell phone on because the rents took it away over the summer when i went over on the minutes...[but it is now on and working and in my possession!] so i couldnt talk to john over the phone... and his house didnt have internet at the time... and he is offcampus at a house on montclair.. so we basically had like no communication... and i kind of got frusturated alil bit... and i didnt really realize that... he would be getting internet... my phone IS working now... and hes like a 5 minute drive away and i see him everyday. i dont know what i was thinking... i thought the whole year would be like shit. hahah. sounds so dumb. and then like...i just figured my classes would be all hard... and i got all anxious...hahaha. and the freakin dorm is like yonder away from everyone else... and everyone is separated now in different dorms and apart. and i hated that. teh. but i got over it...and sucked it up...and came to my senses... i am happy and im not going anywhere. and this year should be awesome. :) and i love you john and thanx for being patient with me and talking me through my stupidity. youre the best ever. so the first weekend here at desales has passed. and it was sweeet. jackie and i hung around here on friday night for alil bit being all stupid and stuff hahaha and got ready to head to the band boy's house. john came and picked us up and we walked...which seemed like an hour to the house. through the streets of allentown ghettoville...get honked at about 4 times. finally got to their house. it was awesome. jackie and i met alot of cool new people... new tv/film freshmen and stuff like that... and the older ones where there too. so it was good to see everyone back and having a good time. jackie, john, and i then walked to bryce's house...and there were, no lie...100+ plus people there... all outside...and they had 6 kegs. it was ridiculous. as soon as we got there though...the cops showed and EVERYONE like jetted. so jackie and i like... jumped over a fence and went down the alley and just walked back to johns house down the street alil bit. hahaha. so we waited on the porch for john and then i saw lauur laur. woo woo. and we just hung out there for the rest of the night. and i stayed over with the love. saturday i hung around the dorm for a few... got a shower... and john took me out to dinner. we went to applebees...and it was yummmmmy. :) then we went back to his house and laura and T soon came and a bunch of others and we all hung around and had a swell time. :) you girls are awesome. we all know where we'll be on the weekends! so after a few laur and i decided to go next door to say 'hello' to the lehigh kids...which was funny. and then we walked to rose's house to see her house and stuff like that. travelled back and had an interesting night. everything turned out good though. it was a good night. had fun with all of you kids. stayed over again with my baby. so, all in all it was a good first weekend. had a fun time with my baby and everyone else. :) so today...i just came back in the middle of the afternoon... did the laundry... showered... and read for western civ... basically hung around with my jackie love. now watching the vma pre-show and then onto the vmas! hanging around the room pretty much. kinda tired. and that is about it. another week of school. woo. hoping its manageable. :) love you kids. <3-Erin i just thought, i'd let you know...i filled my head with your voice upon the stars | lay my dreams

sugar, we're gOing dOwn swingin [20 Aug 2005|11:50pm] [ mood | loved ] [ music | -fall out boy- thanx to john deas ] sigh, i love *him* so, hm..lets see. ive been home in philly. oh joyous. but ive been with my baby so its not bad at all. i miss cape may... but im looking foreward to moving back to dsu and such. so i met john's parents. i know, right...finally. :) my fault though. i was kinda...scared. hahaha. alright, so he picked me up and we headed to his house. and i met his parents and they are so nice. ;) not scary at all. stuck around there for alittle and then headed over to bob's house, so i could meet him and they played guitar and what not. so it was a chill time. so yes i saw rise against and from autumn to ashes at the croc. rock yesterday. it was a pretty awesome show. i went with john and proko and bob... and then eric showed as rise against came on. it was pretty crazy, but it was an awesome time. helped my baby move in up at his house and then went to the show. after the show we headed back to john's and there was a party deal going on. which turned out pretty sweet. alot of dsu kids were there. noga...nikki...laura...proko... eric...nastus...lou...dan... some lil incoming freshmen slutbags, hahaha. but yah it was a sweet time. so we hung out there until we got all tired and such and i stayed over with my baby. ;) i love him. its always amazing laying with him and just talking and such. you mean everything to me. woke up this morning, or like noonish... and a few of us went to ihop to eat. yum yum if i had an appetite. so we ate there and then headed back to johns house in a-town. hung around the house for alil and then headed back to philly. so my mom made us watch like a million home videos [?].. cause she was labelling the unlabeled... so we had to watch them. and some were pretty freakin funny. i was an awesome child, i must say. very entertaining. so we were tortured with that...and then i decided to show john my big purple monster gymnastics picture...from when i was about 8 years old. i have this HUGE round stomach.. hanging over the balance bar... and i have like a camel toe... in this nylon, stretchy purple short jumpsuit...along with my quadruple chin. hahahaha. i bet you wanna see it. but only about 4 people have had the privilege of seeing it. but yes. we saw willy wonka tonight at the movies. we should have seen the skeleton key... but, we decided to see WW. which.... was dissappointing. it was kind of boring... i dont know. it was ok. drove back home with my love. sigh. we had a cute little conversation on the way back. it made me smile. i dont know... hes adorable... and i have fallen in love with him and its amazing. <3. i had an awesome 2 days which we always have fun together. and i love every minute with you. so, thats about it. i have to go out tomorrow and get the rest of some stuff for school and such.... finish up packing and get everything together... and THEN... move in monday morning. sigh sigh. should be an awesome year. :) -Erin lay my dreams

i.dOnt.CARE.where.im.gOing. [17 Aug 2005|06:42pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | -niente- ] back home...in philly and hating every minute of it. i dont feel it necesary to be back in this state when i move in on monday... at least let me stay until saturday...haha. alright so... i worked yesterday... from 1030am-600pm and ivan worked with me. he never comes in during the day. but he told maria he wanted to work with me and be with me on my last day [?]. awwwww. im going to miss those boys. we had so much fun. but they are in cape may until october. :) when i was done work, maria vinny and marissa took me out to dinner. how cute are they? so we ate at carneys. i then went home went to yoga, ran, and worked out... for the last time down the shore. came home, got all ready... and headed into cape may to say goodbye to everyone and take pictures and do all that fun stuff. it was kind of sad... i had a fun summer with all you kids. jackon stopped by, vinny was there of course... maria, marissa, raya...basha...and my ivans. pictures came out really cute. i have the ones from vinnys camera and the rest need to be downloaded onto the computer. maria was all sad... but, i got everyones info and we'll keep in touch and such. and if maria LISTENS to me. we'll all be together again next summer. :) so...i came home after taking vinny home OF COURSE. te he he. and i packed my whole life. woke up extremely early.... loaded up the van... and happily [...sike] drove to philly. unpacked the van... and megan and i then got something to eat. came back home... and i sorted the clothes i need for school and kept them in bags... and thats about it. i then crashed and slept for a good... 4 hours. woke up...got a shower.. and here i am. seeing john tonight. how cute. we're going out to dinner. even though i dont want to be in this state.... it will be awesome being with him, as usual. so, i have to go get ready to head out. bye kids... 5 days... HELL YES. -Erin *FATE...is an elegant, cold-hearted...* lay my dreams

i have ALWAYS *admired* yOu... [15 Aug 2005|09:11pm] [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | -the starting line- ] sigh sigh sigh <3 i love him. teh :) hm, i dont even remember where i left off with this journal. lets see... john came saturday night to spend a few days with me at the shore. for the last time... well, before school starts of course. :) and it was an amazing time...as usual. i love this kid so much. he didnt tell me he was coming for real or not saturday night... so when i got home from work... he was out front....::smile:: i was so excited to see him. <3 we hung out for the night and just cuddled and talked and all that cute stuff. woke up sunday.... i had work from 12-9... so, john drove me in and then hung around my house for a few... and then my work and such. i felt bad i had work... but i was happy he was down and with me. so i worked until 9:3oish....and then we went into wildwood, meeting megan and petAr and my theodora darling. came back home around 1am... and again, layed with my baby until we got tired. woke up early this morning and we both went to the gym. te he. i worked with the trainer dude and john did his own stuff. then went swimming in the pool... hung around, went into cape may... and ate a banana split....mmm.. different flavors and topping of course... sigh, we're fatasses. :) and it was gooooood. came back here.... walked to the bay and just talked. love him <3. he just left not too long ago. :) nothing else going on... my last day of work is tomorrow... :( kinda sad. met cool people. last day = heading back to philly... yes, tomorrow night or early early wednesday morning. i dont want to leave.... haha, i like the shore... but theres alot to look foreward too. school starts in what, 8 days?... we move in, in 7 days. not so excited about actual classes... but i mean....theres the weekends, and rooming with jackie will be awesome.. and ill be able to see john everyday now. which is awesome, because we havent seen eachother everyday for the past 3 months. just seeing everyone and such back at school, it'll be sweet. so, good times.:) so- thats about it. ill be seeing you all soon. ill be in philly for the week until i move in school on monday. so, yes. boo to philly. have to go out and get stuff for the dorm and what not... and whichever else. the ennnnnnnd... i have to go get megan from work. and her and petar are doing excellent.... by the way. ;) we got through the summer... i knew we would. -Erin theres no stopping us now lay my dreams

the stars will pave your journey to another x-rated love story... [10 Aug 2005|05:55pm] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | -a static lullaby- ] so, im watching dr. phil.. and this 18 year old girl as major OCD... like, shes a freak... haha. its crazy. so..ive been really really tired these days... im not being lazy... but i feel worn out. im just so tired. i dont know... i woke up this morning and my gland is swollen i think it may be allergies.... hopeully not a relapse. that would be...shitty. nothing exciting going on... i will be home in 6 days. i hate philly...so im not looking foreward to leaving the jersey shore... ill miss it. sigh. i love the beach. but i do get to spend much more time with john while im home and then alot of time with him when school starts, which is entirely way too soon. the 22nd, i move in... and the 23rd classes start. wow.... looking foreward to school though. rooming with jackie will be such a good good time. im excited for that. and then seeing the rest of the desales kids. trevor called me today and we talked for a few. he was at warped. hes a cool kid. so, yah...he'll be in brisson along with alot of the other kids, so thatll be sweet. and then john has a house off campus so that should be pretty swell as well. be spending some of my time there and such. luckily the kids he is living with, i like. haha. so, that works. lil emo buddy!! wo wo. [aka: lou]. it has been raining the past 2 days. but, today turned out to be really nice. i layed out, and got some color... trying to get it all in before i head back to freakin philly... i was supposed to have off yesterday...but maria had me open and stay until 5pm. it was raining... harcore all day...so jenna, erin, and i... just pretty much...hung around the place. came home and went to yoga...where i fell asleep. hahah. wow. im tellin you... i just lay down now and fall asleep in a matter of 5 minutes. well, at the end of yoga, we do what is called a "corpse" pose... where the body rests for about 5 minutes. and you meditate and stuff like that. well..i fell asleep. teh. yeah buddy. came home from yoga... took a shower... picked up megan in cape may from work...came home and then totally went to sleep. woke up early this morning. went to yoga...at 11am... and then trained with mark afterwards for an hour and a half. i was killed. teh. my body hurts. i think i may be doing too much... and my body is getting worn out. so, i need to kinda chill out i presume. but, i like working out... i just kind of go over board. took a shower when i got in and the sun was all out... so i layed out for the rest of the day. just watched dr. phil... and i think i may go take a nap for an hour or so. then watch friends... and will and grace <-- love that show. i may go into cape may... vinny keeps calling and asking. but im really tired...so we'll see. i have work tomorrow. i was scheduled for 1pm-7pm... but tomorrow night is midnight madness on the block... where everything stays open until 1am... and there are like huge discounts and such like that. and maria forgot to schedule people at night. and raya has off on thursdays... so....i will be working now from 1pm-1AM.... hm, yes. and vinny will be working as well... but he will be dressed as spongebob... walking up and down the street... and the ivans will be working too. so, yes. and that is all. i miss john... i think hes tryin to get out of work and be done for the summer early to be with me. whoo knows. hopefully it all works out. and he can get his ass down here for the remaining days left. sigh. that makes me sad. summer started off so slow... and now its like...over. but yes...i miss john... and he should get here soon... in my possession. :) kthx. i love you. the end i will see you all soon... are we excited? well...ya should be. -Erin nOt even HELL...cOuld be HOtter than yOu right nOw... upon the stars | lay my dreams

oooh...the chemistry between us [08 Aug 2005|12:41pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | -save your life- omnisoul ] :) - hello - hm..so whats been going on... spent the weekend with my baby... and it was amazing <33. he came friday night; picking me up from work. we werent too busy at work... it was vinny, jess, and i working. so, my baby came friday night. and we just hung around the house. peter was over with megan and such. and...yes, they are now official. we all knew it was coming. i went to the gym saturday early morning with the trainer dude and i let john sleep. :) i got my ass kicked at the gym... but, its all good. so we'll see how it goes. dont worry john... i wont go butch on you... hahahaha. thatd be funny though. came back around...12 and woke my baby up. sigh, i love you. went out for alil bit skateboarding and such and then got ready to head to peters house and then head to see lifehouse in atlantic city. us 4 went out to dinner in atlantic city... which was some good food and then walked around the boardwalk for alil bit. and then we went to the house of blues. a band called omnisoul opened up, and they were surprisingly really good. ill have to check out the cd. and then....lifehouse. sigh sigh sigh. i <3. they are amazing. they played some of their older stuff... and then the newer stuff. incredible. and i was there with my love which made it that much better. came back home and john and i just hung out and talked on the porch and stuff and it was totally cute. teh. we're pathetic... im so in love. and i missed that kid when he was away on vacay. talked until we got all tired... and he layed with me until i fell asleep. had work sunday at 2pm... but i just called out earlier before i went in. i needed to. hah. i dont think it was a big deal... i guess we'll find out today. but, i just needed to chill out for a day. megan, john, theordora, and i went to basha's [megans boss] daughters 10th birthday party for alil bit. so, we hung out there for a lil....and then it started to rain and lightening and such. boo. megan and theodora had work at 230pm... so, we drove them both into cape may and john and i headed back to the house. although the sun was peaking out... and the rain stopped, it wasnt a day to lay out...or go to the beach or anything... so john and i hung around the house for some time...and then my mother made us go to the acme to get food for dinner. so, we went. and we looked cool. so, my oh so lovely boyfriend clips his keys onto our cart... and of course... we put the bags in the van, cause i drove... and i put the cart back outside... with johns keys still on the cart, mind you. and he forgot they were hanging on there. so we drive home...and john has to move his car foreward more so there was room for the van to be parked in the driveway as well. hahahahaha...and thats when he realized he didnt have his keys...sigh. sooooooo..... we drive back to the acme...and the cart...is gone. so either, it was put away outside or...someone had it in the store... so we check outside... and then we go inside and ask c. service... and nothing. so we make them make announcements and stuff, hahaha. and then we split up and each went down like the aisles looking at peoples carts. sigh...we're fun kids. so then we have the manager looking with us... yada yada yada...and then... the keys were found...still on the cart... OUTSIDE in the cart row deal. yeah, we're awesome. :) conclusion...john was reunited with his keys. and thats pretty much what has been going on. the weekend was spent with john. and i gave him his skateboard deck that i got him [ ;) ] and the dvd Saw... because i lost a bet... and a bottle opener keychain thats a black skateboard..because it was cool. i made him think mr. eric troxell was getting him a deck...but nope. it was me :) :). te hehe. and he brought me stuff from mexico and boston which was really sweet. he got me a huge stuffed animal seal... and we named him Jet. teh. and he got me perfume from mexico and it smells all perty and then a moon and a sun thingy like inside a big sun...ya know. kinda hard to explain...but im obssesed with stars...and the moon...and stuff like that. so, it was thoughtful of him. so yes. youre probably all sick of hearing me go on and on about my weekend with my baby. im sorry... to hear that. haha. so, it was an amazing weekend. and i miss him already. <33. hmmm, today. woke up early... and went to the gym at 1030... and mark; trainer dude made me run 2 miles... grrr...and then i lifted alot working on lower back and biceps and abs today. hurty hurt. but its a good hurt. came home and just got out of the shower... i have to leave for work in a few. work at 2pm... i had a dream i got fired because i called out.... hahaha. blah. we'll see what happens. supposedly jess told peter that maria was mad. but, i never call out.... so, its not the end of the world. i called out for a personal reason and i dont have to say anything more. so...i have work from 2pm-93opm. not sure what im going to do later. im so tired....ill probably mop around and just relax around the house. sooo..the end. i am done here. *these are my favorite chords* <3-Erin lay my dreams

there.you.are.again.asleep.against.the.windowpane.as.always. [04 Aug 2005|11:37pm] [ mood | exanimate ] [ music | -it ends tonight- all american rejects ] haha, watching will and grace it makes me laugh. good times. not doing anything exciting... i messed up my knee.... from falling... i dont know what i did from that fall. i cant bend my knee... or straighten it completely.. and i have this awesome limp goin on. hah. and the gash itself...in the middle of the huge lump...is all pusing and stuff... who knows. im still alive... but its painful. ive just been working... went to yoga yesterday morning...and got myself a personal trainer; mark. i go tomorrow for an hour and a half. he is pretty much going to train me to train myself... so when i get back into school and such, ill know what and how to work what i need at the gym and stuff. so, should be decent. been beaching it. i had off on tuesday... and i worked wednesday night. so ive had time to actually lay out because i havent in like a week or so. worked from noon to tonight today...kinda...not busy. wasnt too exciting. went out to dinner with the mother and the aunt... and then i went into cape may and hung out with jess b. :) i dont work tomorrow until night time... so, gym in the morning and then the rest of the day is me...laying on the beach... :) john is coming tomorrow which is cool. i havent seen him... in what seems like forever... havent seen him in like 2 weeks. so...it'll be good to spend the weekend with him. we're seeing lifehouse in atlantic city on saturday with megan and peter. so, thats exciting. sigh. <3 lifehouse. chris dennis is having a bbq thing on the same day of the concert... so, i kinda wanna stop by afterwards....but who knows. he has to get back to me. hm, what else... so, john asked me to travel to germany with him and his friend jeff during xmas break... haha...i never flew before... im contemplating matters. i dont know if it good for your first flight to be from here...to stop in italy.. and then to germany... i mean, it would be a good experience...and i need to fly sometime...i mean, maybe. it would be pretty decent... so we'll see. its up in the air. been talking to my jackie love. how ive missed her. it will be her and andy's 6 month soon...:) john and i's is on the 2nd.. and her and andys is on the 7th. so, thats sweeeeeet. cant wait to get to dsu.... :) fun fun times. what we have planned.... is definite. no matter WHAT. thats pretty much it... nothing else kids. hm, my ear drum is like..pulsating... weird. and i will be skating soon... oh...and if youre bored... try looking up the spill canvas lyrics... to the cd "one fell swoop" ...simply, amazing. -Erin and even if you got down on your knees, you couldnt make me stay lay my dreams

There Was Love...I Meant, There Were Accidents... [02 Aug 2005|11:11pm] [ mood | restless ] [ music | -valiant- the spill canvas ] i fell...again... off of the sector. you should be proud. i skidded on my knee in the road... my left foot was still on the board and it rolled down the street... with my knee skidding on the ground. gashing it open...bleeding down... and now theres a big lump... hm, who knows. stung...just a tad... got up...pissed...skated back. went to the beach in town for once...are you all happy? went with vinny... and then brady came and jackson. it was... extremely hot out. we stayed for like... an hour and a half. went back to captains... hung around for a few. and then we walked through cape may. came home went in the pool and fell asleep for a good, relaxing hour. i love that. no worries. walked the dog... hes doing good, by the way. teh. my aunt is here until thursday....and he doesnt really like women...except me and the mom and megan... so, he is locked in my moms room... and not very happy. got a shower... and then went to yoga. yeah, i know...backwards... but, i like being all clean and stuff and then doing yoga... its not like a hardcore sweatfest. its really relaxing...and i love it. i did a headstand tonight... for 5 breathes, haha. it doesnt sound cool to you probably...but its like a big deal in yoga and stuff. who knows. it was interesting. also lifted afterwards and stuff, as usual. came home... i ate some provolone melted on wheat bread... talked to john online for alittle bit... and then headed into town. walked along the boardwalk... saw a few kids and stopped to talk to them... went into captains to see the ivans and raya and stuff. walked and walked around until megan was done work and then we drove back here. hangin around now... petAr is here with megan... im about to do some ballet. and then i have to call my jackie love... a conversation is in need. how i miss her. shes out right now... hopefully i can get a hold of her. if not, tomorrow will work. almost!! we'll be rooming and having much much fun. on AND going off campus. :) i dont have work until... 8pm tomorrow. so, ill get to go to the beach again...and yoga in the morning. finally. i need to work some nights... i need my days for the beach! so thats what i will be doing tomorrow. also have to stop in wildwood for a few... and then head into work. and thats about it... ballet time. cya later bologna pony. <3-Erin you said you like to hear the rain sometimes lay my dreams

what yOur abOut to go thrOugh...will fOrce yOu thrOugh yOur fears... [01 Aug 2005|09:44pm] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | -legend dies- bleed the dream ] hello children. the boyfriend is back! aw, he had a good time. im happy it was fun. i can finally talk to him now... which is a plus. i missed him. hes coming down for the weekend. :) excited. nothing much is going on... about to head to wildwood... with the sister. she wants to pick something up for petAr. wink* wink* just been working... hanging out around town... skateboarding... going to the beach... nothing has changed, haha. same old, same old. gym, still. everyday, again. hm hm hm... what else? tomorrow will be john and i's... 6 month! awww. amazing. many more to look foreward too. you mean the world and i love you. its already august.... man...this summer started off slow.. now its going by. desales soon kids!! ive been talking to jackie love... im excited for this. we're going to have such a fun time. :) and ill see all of you guys... good good times. thats pretty much it... i have off tomorrow from work.. its supposed to be really nice... so ill board up to the beach... lay out for a while... and i need to go out for a few... then who knows. i think my aunt is comin down for the day... so we'll see. 3 days until i see my baby!!!! <33 ::the end:: and how long would you sit around and watch me waste my tears? lay my dreams

.i.crOssed.Out...ALL..the.stars [30 Jul 2005|12:50am] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | -self conclusion- the spill canvas ] day off today wasnt really a beach day... woke up at 1pm... i never do stuff like that talked to john until 3am online. he will be home from mexico on sunday sometime. cant wait to finally be able to hear his voice and talk to him. sorry i missed your call tonight. skated today even though i shouldnt have. still have that pulled muscle. it was a nice day though. skated for a good 45 minutes... along the bay road. talked online for a few while getting some new daphne loves derby songs and the spill canvas songs which are, by far...incredible. made some new cds with them. did some pilates stuff and used the thera band to work out this muscle thing... didnt really help... probably made it worse. ate some pizza for dinner it was like..chicken...and mozarella cheese...and basil. it was a good time. while watching will and grace... love that show. went into town tonight due to my boredom... and my need to be out. hung out with vinny for alil... then he went home. joked around with the Ivans and Jess. and helped out alittle bit at captains because there was a huge line and raya wasnt there yet. went down to georges and talked to petAr and meg for a bit... they should just become official and get it over with already. saw Sal walking down the street. what a good kid. then Brady came in captains to hang out for some time. got a bike ride to my car from the kid and then drove home. got in at about 12 and took a shower. just did some ballet stuff... because for some reason... i do ballet [barre work]... everynight in my kitchen... hah. and now, here i am. getting tired... pilates in the morning... which i didnt go to this morning due to being totally tired... so, i must go tomorrow. and im also getting a personal trainer for the month of august... because im bored...and i want one. then, work at captains from 12pm-7pm. ::the end:: FADE in start the SCENE but things are not what they seem as we stand at the edge of the world lay my dreams

+ hes gOt that crOOked smile...+ [28 Jul 2005|12:55am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | -the academy is- ] so i skateboarded today...for about an hour... and for the first time since i purchased this sector 9 longboard of mine, i fell. not just fell lightly...i fell hard. naturally i tried preventing it... which, to my conclusion... makes it worse. so im about a good 1/2 hour into skating...when i just...totally, lose balance... skateboard rolls away... and so does erin...on the ground. totally skidded on the road... and TUMBLED + ROLLED in the street... scrapping my knee....my thigh... forearm...and elbow...and not only did i scrape my body... but i also pulled my groin muscle... extremely OUT. so i cant walk...or lift my left leg up... it puts too much pressure on the area i suppose. it was actually a good time. got my ass up off the street got back on the beast... and went for another 1/2 hour. :) ::the end:: i am now the awesome chick who skateboards with eric troxell and the gang -> coming soon. -no posers- -Erin <3 lately, ive been thinking so strangely about the clouds... lay my dreams

and only you can save me now... [27 Jul 2005|01:47am] [ mood | thirsty ] [ music | -dirty little secret- all american rejects ] ohh what a night...a fun and interesting one i must say. bought the new all american rejects cd... i couldnt get the new daphne loves derby... or the spill canvas. i needed something new.. so, i picked up good old AAR. not that bad. :) its been a looooong day. woke up early... skated to the beach... yes, the heat index was 110... and yes, it felt it. and yes...i skated anyway. im hardcore...like that. pft. layed out on the beach with the moms and megan... and i ACTUALLY got into the ocean.... i needed to cool off alot. skated back home and went into the pool and layed out some more. and no, im not a lobster. i think we got passed that. ;) took megan into work... walked around cape may alil bit, got a smoothie at my work... made a stop at the cd store... and came back home. i then took a much needed nap from the sun. oh so hot. woke up and went to yoga. came home and got ready to head out to carneys for kareoke! what an awesome time...like, for real. there was about...10 of us. kareoke was from..10pm-2am. and megan sang, and she was amazing, as usual. and everyone was telling her to stick around and stuff and sing more. haha. but anyway.... i had an interesting time. theodore, this girl megan works with from romania....is definitely my new friend. hahaha. shes awesome. we were out on the floor dancing and having a good time... and i somehow...wounded up... dancing on stage [?]. whoops. hahahaha. :) :) . i also gently had to let about 4 guys down.... erin has a boyfriend who she loves more than anything* <33. but yes, it was a really fun night. im so tired. it is now time for bed... yoga tomorrow morning... and then work until 7pm. see you all sooooon and i miss you john... hope youre having fun in mexico. -Erin you can be my dirty little secret.... lay my dreams

all i want is EveryThing [25 Jul 2005|09:10pm] [ mood | indescribable ] [ music | -some oldies stuff on the radio...- hells yeah ] so, the laptop is fixed... are we all excited? im waiting for megan to call from work so i can either pick her up... or meet her and jess somewhere. it is jess's birthday, sooo... HAPPY BIRTHDAY :) just got out of the shower.... i was all sweaty and gross from the ballet/modern class. good times. worked today from 12pm-7pm. we werent really busy.... not a rush or anything. steady. went to wildwood last night with vinny to talk to one of the piercer dudes. i was allergic to the one i had in... so they helped me pick a titanium one and they put it in for me and cleaned the area and stuff. so, yes..how exciting. but anyway, wildwood was totally packed....i saw ted! ted bloom. i remember him... but yeah, he has a house in anglesea, right near jess. so thats cool. i didnt know that. talked for a few and then vinny and i headed back to cape may. dropped him off and i came home. so megan saw paulie two nights ago in wildwood! damnit.... anyway...paul and brian, are twins from NY. and they were models in seventeen magazine... or their pic was in there... or something or other... and we meet them in wildwood from recognizing them and then every year in the summer we would meet up with them again... not planning too. so....paul and i decided to keep in touch like 2 years ago after we kept seeing eachother. so, yes. and i missed it!! hahaha, oh wells. i havent seen them in like...2 years. that woulda been cool. nothing really else is going on... talked to my baby yesterday. hes too cute. my little mexican boy. i expect a mexican jumping bean. and i miss him. but i will see him soon. hes home on saturday! so, august 6th... pete, megan, john [hopefully...or someone else], and i will be going to see lifehouse. :) sigh...i love lifehouse. theyre playing in atlantic city at the H.O.B. so, im excited for that. jackie and i are trying to plan this maryland adventure.... but im not sure how well its going to work out. we'll figure out something, as usual. always do! so, i have off tomorrow... the heat index is supposed to be like 105-110 degreees. mmm, nice and...hot. ill definitely be at the beach :). skate up there... lay out for a bit... come back in the pool... and then head to yoga. that is the plan. :) so...thats all for now. i dont want to bore you anymore with my unadventurous life. see you all sooooon real soon. <3 -Erin ps: i have a headache....hm i have nothing to give you except everything lay my dreams

what else can i do?...im so in love with you [23 Jul 2005|11:15pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | -none...little children arguing- ]   figured id update...hmmm, lets seeee.... im at my boss's house right now, babysitting like 4 kids with vinny. we're having fun, hahah. we're all the way in egg harbor township. i wont make this update long. nothing really has been going on. everything is going really well. john and i are awesome. he is in mexico right now for a week, my baby. hope hes having fun. miss him already, but i will be seeing him when he gets back. we couldnt be better though. :) so happy. he came down yesterday and we skateboarded, because we can...and we're awesome like that. haha. love. so, ive just been working and enjoying my summer. i took a modern dance workshop this morning which was really interesting and i was asked to teach a ballet/modern dance class on monday nights from 7-8. so, that was pretty cool. i will be starting that on monday. :) been going to the gym, still...so i can kick your ass. hah. maybe. and vinny just came in and wanted me to let you all know that i am a little dirty slut. hahahaha. jk. we kid. so ANYWAY- i talked to my jackie love for about 2 hours about 2 days ago...how i missed her so. so excited for this school year....she will be my roomate. and we will be more sociable. hahaha. yaaaah. we are going to have such a good good time. and then ill see john everyday...and ah, it will be just a good good time. i think jackie and i and a few are going to oc maryland for like 3-4 days before school starts up, so that should be fun. sigh, what else? i think that is pretty much it. my laptop has a virus...so i wont be on for, i have no idea. buuuut...i miss you all and i will see most of you soon. back to so-called...babysitting... bye loves :) <3-Erin lay my dreams

...i only want symptahy in the form of you crawling in bed with me... [19 Jul 2005|04:39pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | -the tide- the spill canvas ] so i pulled my femur muscle out... and i cant walk...and its like... pounding...hmmm... i love pulled muscles. so, hm...whats new? worked early yesterday... 1030am-600pm... oh joy. worked with vinny. la la la...nothing really exciting happened there. so, i left at 630pm to take a ballet/modern class. there were like...4 people there but it was really good and i liked it. and i was told...what a beautiful dancer i was...hahaha, um....then it made me think of jackie and i in modern with angie. ooh the good times. ALMOST HERE AGAIN! so, as im just leaving the place at 800 back to work... i see the infamous jeremy frigo riding his bike around town. perfect for you, erin no longer had to walk to work... got on those handle bars and was taken there on his bike. that was quite dangerous....hahaha. no sharp turns, ever again. kthx. so anyway- chilled for alittle bit and then headed home with vinny. my new adopted brother. got a shower...got changed... picked megan up from work... and then we all went over to jess's house in wildwood and stayed over. OH...what an interesting time that was. we'll just...not elaborate. megan...sigh....you cracked me up. got up early this morning due to jess having work at 8am. mom picked us up... took vinny home.... and got home. the mom, megan, and i... went to georges for breakfast where petAR made us food. and it was yummmmmy. ate there and then walked/shopped through town. saw brady at work and bothered him for alittle bit....he was being an ass throwing golf balls at me. it was so totally hot out.... 99 degrees to be exact. downed like 2 bottles of water in 10 minutes. we spent about.... 4 hours in town and got home. went right into the pool. and alas...there was a dead bird in the skimmer! hahaha. awesome. so...my mom....made me... get it out. what a process. so i had to push it out of the filter/skimmer, into the pool...and then scoop it out....made me shake. so...i swam after that.... and i just got in. yoga tonight from 730-830... so thats the deal. probably get something to eat.... and then yoga it up. OH! and dr phil... at 5pm thats right. stopped in captains and got my schedule thanx to raya working more hours at georges....she lost 20 hours at captains...giving me more. so, its not 33 hours a week.... its 44 hours now. and then vinny got another extra 10 as well. good times. so im buying a sector 9.... either long board rider or short/fat board. :) theyre only like... ranging from 120-164 complete. so...im heading over there tomorrow to kona in wildwood. its about time. teh. then ill go pro.... and get sponsored... and youll all be amazed at my talent.... ... "deadly heat in our area" says the newsman.... ill say.. -anyway- my baby is in boston. he left yesterday to go see his friend bryan and to hang out. hope hes having a swell time. and hes being good, im sure. :) not sure if ill be seeing him this week. it all depends if he comes back earlier or not. and then he goes to mexico with his familigia on saturday. awww. i think we'll pack me in. that should work. haha, no but....so hopefully ill see him before like... the first week in august. if not, i will miss! but i love you. <33. always. so...august 6th.... LIFEHOUSE sigh...at the house of blues in atlantic city. it is going to be hot. petAR and megan want to go too... so they are going in to AC tomorrow to get 4 of them for themselves and john and i. im excited. i havent seen lifehouse since april of 2003. they put on a good show. and not to mention they are amazing. so everything is good right now. cant complain, no complaints. im happy. and summer is going really well. :) hope everyone elses is too!! see you all soon kids. jackie and nicole are in the process of planning a trip either down here or ocean city maryland... so, ill be able to see them or get down there and hang out. so, thats something to look foreward too. anyway, the end. dr phil time! <33-Erin pixies tugging at your hair lay my dreams

no lies. just love. [18 Jul 2005|12:55am] [ mood | worried ] [ music | -the calendar hung itself- bright eyes ] figured id update... yes...im bored. went to the beachy beach. the sun was out...but it thundered. i stayed for a good hour and a 1/2... it was too damn hot. came home and took megan into work. stopped at wawa... hung around home for a few. went to the acme for my mommy. to waste some time before work... considering the sun went in... and it started to rain. got a shower... and went into work. jeremy frigo stopped in! we were kind of busy... so we only talked for like... 10-15 minutes. he wants to go surfing tomorrow after i get off from work at 600pm. so, i very well may be. considering it would be fun to learn. we were really busy tonight... but there was like, 6 of us working. i smacked vinny in the face with whipped cream...and ALL went downhill after that. whipped cream fight...ALL OVER. everyones hair....face....shirts...EVERYWHERE. we were cracking up. it was so funny. good times. time flew by. brady came in too and hung out for alil bit. still trying to decide...me..or vinny. hahaha. not that it matters. that pretty much sums up my day/night. talked to john for alittle bit today. he went to see a movie with some people. i believe he is calling when he arrives home. hes heading up to boston tomorrow to visit his friend bryan for the week... and then the following day, heading to mexico with the family. awww, cute kid. have a fun time... and hopefully all goes well... ill be thinking of you. so...megan and petAr are outside....being all lovey dovey. these kids are crazzii i tell ya. they clicked right away... so, i think they are heading in the right direction. :) i am happy for those two idiots. i mean, he makes me food... you have to accept someone like that. im getting really tired... and i got some color today! the sun hasnt been too reliable these days...and when it is... im usually working. so, sweet. alot of people have me beat though. assholes. like jeremy....being the surfer....lifeguard should be in california guy that he is.... "dude....thats some sweetass tan you got goin on man..." ahaha. good times. assfuck. anyway.... that is all. work tomorrow, early...1030am-600pm... maybe surfing it....or...ballet/modern class 700pm-800pm, which id rather do. haha. oops. shhh. ::cue happy ending music:: and happy afternoons....watching tv from your room...while youre laying in my arms upon the stars | lay my dreams

ive been preOccupied... [17 Jul 2005|11:48am] [ music | -private eye- alkaline trio ] i missed alkaline trio :) hello babies whats going on? nothing much has been going on... yesterday.... woke up early...had work at 1030am... worked until 600pm with vinny, maria, raya... and jenna came in for a little bit...OH! and we cant forget JESS. we werent that busy.... it started to rain and get all cloudy... there was like..noone out. so yes....worked... came home...took a run.... then worked out alil bit doing some pilates crap and stuff. ya knoooow. talked to john for a few....it wasnt going to well...haha. its been a while....we were arguing alil bit...but it would pass. left around 9... and stopped at jeremy frigo's house. its been SO long since i saw that kid. talked to him for alil....and then megan was done work at 10pm... so i went into my work to hang out. brady came in for ice cream, as usual. so we talked and stuff until megan came in. we all walked around for a few. dropped brady off at the golf course and then went home. got to talk to john...haha. sigh. we're fun. pfft. talked and stuff and everything is back. i guess we'll see....theres just tension cause hes there and im here. but, itll be okay i suppose. ill see him soon enough.. there was a HUGE thunderstorm in the middle of the night.... and like downpours and everything. my mom barges in my room at 4am... and it like "WHERE THE HELL IS MEGAN?" um....like i would know? she wasnt in her room...or picking up her cell phone.... but my mom, being a big idiot...didnt walk outside and see her and pete on the porch together.... um yeah. thanks for waking up. woke up not too long ago... just ate a bagel. i have work from 8pm-12am... what a weird time. maria told me to come in a 7pm if i wanted. who knows. its kind of cloudy...but the sun keeps peaking out. and its really really humid. im heading to the beach as soon as im done here. missed yoga. im awesome. its okay though...ive been running and working on my own. starting tomorrow though...its back to the norm again. sweeeeet. so....im heading to the beach.... probably shower... jeremy wanted to hang out for alil before i went into work. who knows with that kid. hes crazy. probably wont. cuz....i dont know, just wont. id be a hypocrite. teh. um...so i have work....working with the ivans and raya. ill be a minority for the night. so there was a party at drexel, at petes apartment on friday....and we were all going...BUT... they changed the date...to some other time... assholes. maria was like "go, go...you have to. ill give you off." haha. but the ivans...are having a barbeque at their motel and they invited me. hahah. i think it would be funny if i went. so i think i will. OR.... at congress hall the army of freshmen are playing along with black and tan for a cancer fund. which i really want to go. the army of freshmen are awesome...and im chris jays cousin. pfft. anyway- who knows. thats in a week... who knows what im doing. beach time--> bye loves <33-Erin im trying to figure out what youre all about these days lay my dreams

<33 [16 Jul 2005|12:20am] [ mood | nostalgic ] [ music | <3 ] i know i already updated....but.. this was posted in the northeast times and i needed to post it as well. No matter what happened, Mooney always enjoyed life On the Sidelines By Joe Mason Most of the time, this is a great job. I basically go out, watch sporting events and meet interesting kids and then write about them. In many ways, it’s even the perfect job. But on the evening of July 6, this job was anything but perfect. I’d just arrived home and decided to log on to the Internet to check my fantasy baseball scores. Then I figured I’d check my work e-mail to see if there was anything interesting. One of my messages was from Jerry Brindisi, the soccer coach at North Catholic High School. He’d sent an e-mail that was upsetting to read. He thought I’d want to know that ex-Falcon soccer player Danny Mooney had died earlier that day. He’d lost a long struggle with cancer. Danny, who graduated from North in 2004, was diagnosed with osteosarcoma when he was in eighth grade. The cancer, which starts in the bone, spread to his leg and a tumor was found near his lung. He had chemotherapy treatments and the disease took a lot out of him in the years following the diagnosis. But if you’d met Danny Mooney, you never would have known it. Danny never let the disease get him down. He continued to play soccer for North, he attended classes regularly, and when he wasn’t receiving treatment in the hospital, he wanted nothing more than to just be a regular teenager. I am convinced that his attitude, maybe even more than any medication, was what kept him alive and fighting. Sure, he often was tired. But he was always upbeat. When Danny wasn’t able to play soccer, he’d do the job on the Falcons’ sideline. He cheered, he helped coach. He did whatever he could to let his teammates know he was still with them. Danny loved soccer, but he also loved being around the team. He loved being one of the guys; he loved his friends. And it wasn’t hard to find Danny Mooney’s pals. Anyone who knew Danny was his friend — you almost had to be. He had a great sense of humor, he had a great outlook on life, and he never felt sorry for himself, even when he was sick and weak from the chemotherapy. When Danny was told he had cancer as a youngster, he thought he was going to die. But after talking with doctors and his mother, Donna, he knew he had to fight this thing. He was going to beat this disease. And for more than six years, he did. He was a fighter. He loved life. He was determined to live a normal life for as long as he could. And that’s exactly what he did. I met Danny Mooney on a Sunday afternoon in October 2003. It was a cold, windy day and he was in the midst of treatment, so he was unable to compete in North’s soccer practices. He could have been home on that Sunday, all warm and watching the Philadelphia Eagles. But he wasn’t. He was right where he wanted to be — among his best friends on the North Catholic soccer team. He was sick. And yet he spent more time laughing, telling his funny one-liners, helping his teammates. Danny talked about his cancer. He said he considered himself lucky. He figured that if he kept a positive attitude and had his friends and family around, he was going to keep moving ahead, day after day, and have a great time for as long as he lived. And that’s exactly what he did. Danny was set to attend college this fall. It won’t happen. That remarkable determination to have a great time for as long as he lived was stilled by cancer on July 6, just a little past noon. And now in death, as it was during his life, it isn’t hard to find Danny Mooney’s friends. They know they have lost something special. But I’d like all of us to find comfort in knowing that he had a really good life. He said so. And though he endured a terrible illness and probably more pain than anyone should endure, his word should be good enough for us. During his senior year at North, Danny got to play in a soccer game. He probably would have been a starter if his health had cooperated, but Danny didn’t complain. That he could step onto the field with his friends and play a game he loved made for a fine afternoon, as far as he was concerned. I always thought of him as a role model for other young people or children trying to stay strong in the midst of a similar struggle. I thought about that after reading Jerry Brindisi’s e-mail. Whenever I had the chance to cross paths with Danny Mooney while doing my job, he made me smile every time I met him. Sometimes it’s hard to understand such tragedies, but everyone who met Danny is better off, for what he brought to everyone’s life. And what they brought to his. If I didn’t have this job, I never would have met Danny Mooney. So maybe it’s the perfect job after all. having a tough night... you are in all of our hearts Danny. you can rest now. no more suffering. <33 lay my dreams

you always had a way with WORDS... [15 Jul 2005|06:47pm] [ mood | mischievous ] [ music | -none....- ] not in a structured mood but..hello children. hmmm..yesterday... -woke up -worked out doing pilates and other random shit -took a bike ride -showered -worked 4pm-12am with vinny, maria, and petAR.... such a funny time...we had fun. we had a hot dog fight... it was just a good time. -came home...extremely exhausted... -talked to a few online...rice krispie treat days will soon be starting again! -talked to john on the phone...until i like passed out... hmmm, today... -had a hard time getting out of bed... i could have slept ALL day.... -went into work at 11am... worked with raya...and vinny came in...and hes still there...hah. -made petAR make me food....interesting -was done work at 5pm -worked out -took a bike ride -showered -and now im eating chicken caesar salad pizza and talking to john online -my life is grand... -probably head into town and hang out with my loves ::the end:: back when we were foolish kids...the world was only as big as a heart.. lay my dreams

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